The Point Of It All....

 Let me tell you about a LOVE story…

On December 27, 2000 my life completely changed forever … My son was born … I was 22 at the time… Young, dumb, naïve… I had no clue of who I was …For 9months I was terrified out of my mind… I was making a baby inside my body… Lord what does that mean? What am I supposed to do now? At the time I had a husband in my life, but the truth remains that a man has the choice to walk away at any time …As for me …this little life belong to me… thru God I made him, my blood, my skin, my eyes… I am solely responsible… So many thoughts ran thru my mind… What if I didn’t make him proud? What if I failed him as a mother?... It was all moving too fast… I wasn’t ready… I watched my belly grow, I felt him move… I knew I had been given a job that was more important than anything else I could have ever imagined… Christian came into this world … I looked at his face… Our eyes met… from there my son saw right thru me…every fault, every error I had ever made, every untruth, every fear… He saw it all… From that very moment I transformed, my heart changed… I had a job to do, God trusted me enough to put this healthy soul in my arms so I must provide... Honestly I have made many more mistakes since then but I’ve never stopped trying to do better, learn more and live fuller. Even in my darkest hours of life when I wanted to just give up… I had to dust off my feelings and keep it moving… Christian's life gave my life so much meaning…It gave me purpose.

 Lately I have been stressing out so much about my purpose in this life… I mean like literally crying, praying and misunderstanding why I wake up, walk around and go to work everyday to a job that makes me feel so numb. Here I am thinking I should be the next Beyonce, Oprah, and Michelle Obama… Like where is my door? Where is my chance?  I was talking to a close friend about my feelings and that friend told me that it takes a lifetime to discover one’s purpose.  My friend said that God uses your life and its experiences to show you that he is in control of your purpose and when you are ready to handle what his purpose is for your life than you will know… This good friend said Nikee look at your life… You have three beautiful children… No you are not the next Beyonce, Oprah, Barack or Michelle… But your children have the chance to be… Your purpose is your children… You do what you are supposed to do by them and your purpose has been fulfilled…

The light bulb flashed on PEOPLE… Here I am searching for something that has been right in front of me the whole time… My purpose… Christian, Johrdon and Carsyn….

My purpose is to provide, nurture and guide them… I need a better world for them… Honestly children teach you more about life than anything else… They wake up every day with a light in their eyes that shows no fear, patience and no judgment… to try this world one more time… Just give it a chance MOM is what their smiles say… indescribable LOVE…There is just something about it, you can’t break it, find words to describe it, or alter it.  It told me I was here for a reason… a purpose… I promised my kids a lot, and I haven’t fulfilled all of it yet, but it’s coming.

 Use everything that happens to you, for you. If you don’t like it, change it, if it’s not working, fix it.  If anything that you have been through in your life up to this point was meant to stop you, it would have… it’s all been for your good whether you understood it or not… I know it’s not about me… this world…this life … these kids… on any level. That’s why I thank God for grace and mercy because I’m blessed to be able to serve, inspire and motivate.  This good friend looked at my life and said " to do what you do every day you have to be a believer". That I am… It’s hard sometimes…actually 95% of the time I am praying to the Lord to help me get up out this bed… but Love won’t let me wait… I have a purpose… Good Love is for teachers, forgivers and builders…It’s reserved for people who are willing to put in the work. .. I am proud to be a mother, and I am thankful… God knew exactly what he was doing… When I think about what I WOULD have been doing right now instead… believe me I wouldn’t trade it… Thank You God for this LOVE….

Tuesday Humor SWAKparents ;0D!!!

A mother passing by her daughters bedroom was astonished 2 see the bed was nicely made & everything was picked up. Then she saw an envelope propped up on the center of the bed. It was addressed, "Mom". With the worst premonition, she opened the envelope with trembling hands: "Dear Mum, it is with great regret & sorrow ...that im writing 2 u, i had 2 elope with my new boyfriend because i wanted 2 avoid a scene with u & Dad. Ive been finding real passion with him & he is so nice, even with all his piercings, tattoos, beard & motorcycle clothes. But its not just the passion Mum, im pregnant & he said that we will b very happy. He already owns a trailor in the woods & has a stack of firewood 4 the whole winter. He wants 2 have many more children with me & that is now one of my dreams 2. He taught me that marijuana doesn't really hurt anyone & we'll b growing it 4 us & trading it with his friends 4 all the cocaine & ecstasy we want. In the meantime we'll pray that science finds a cure 4 AIDS so he can get better, he sure deserves it! Don't worry Mum, im 15yrs old now & i know how 2 take care of myself. Someday im sure we'll b back 2 visit so u can get 2 know yr grandchildren. Yr daughter, Sophie... P.S. Mum, none of the above is true. I'm over at the neighbors house. I just wanted 2 remind u that there r worse things in life than my report card thats in my desk top drawer. I love u! Call me when it is safe 2 come home.."

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Happy 2013... My Son is Important

30 Things A Mom Should Teach Her Son ...

1. You must pray every day...don’t go a day without it

2. It’s harder to take a punch than to throw one.

3. Find the people who make you laugh and follow them around like a golden retriever. Laughing is like a vitamin. You can never get enough of it.

4. The Kitchen? Not just for girls. I will teach you to use the stove.

5. A man who hugs a lot is comfortable in his own skin.

4. Read poetry... Love Jones is a great romantic movie.. women love poetry ;0D!!!

5. If a girl tries to change you she doesn't really love you no matter how much you love her.

6. When you feel like crying, for joy or out of pain, DO IT!!! If you don’t get those tears out, they will calcify in your chest and make it harder to love as fully and deeply as you would like to.

7. Play old school music when you have to clean the house..I've taught you all the old school music "The Mayor of Soul" has taught me ;0>!!

8. Look deeply into the eyes of the one you are falling for to get a glimpse of her soul.

9. Spend a chunk of time every year with people who are much less fortunate than you are. It will fill your heart with gratitude.

10. Never lie about anything really important. The first lie will cause you to have to lie again and again to cover up the truth. And each time you’ll chip away an important piece of yourself.

11. Find work that makes you happy. If you can change the world in the process all the better.

12. If you get the chance to travel across the country or across the globe, take it. You will learn way more from people who are different from you than the ones who are the same.

13. Doing nothing is better than doing the wrong thing. But you are going to make mistakes. Tons of them. The real question is what you will learn from them.

14. Don’t be in any rush to get married. Divorce really sucks. A good marriage can start when you’re 21 or 61.

15. Condoms will save your life.

16. Money and power look good, but they won’t fill your being with joy the way your family will.

17.Real girls do not look like Victoria Secret's models... No lie

18. Find a way to move your body that gives you pleasure. You don’t have to be an athlete to be a man, but your body is a temple and you need to care for it, enjoy it, and use it to express yourself.. Exercise!!

19. Drinking can be fun in moderation. Just make sure to ask for help if you find yourself blacking out or doing things you regret.

20. Plain honesty will get you very far in this world. Most people don’t have the guts to speak their mind, regardless of the consequences.

21. Always give your spouse birthday presents in bed.... Trust me I am a women recieving gifts in bed will be gladly thanked... ;0>!!

22. You will never know a stronger pull than that of your friends trying to get you to participate in their wrong doing.  Resisting makes you a man... succumbing makes you a coward.

23. Sex is great but holding the person that you care deeply about in the middle of the night is one of the best feelings anyone can have.

24. Live passionately. Dream big. Don’t back down.

25. Shower daily, keep your nails clean and trimmed and use deodorant... women love a nice smelling man.. I promise :oD!!!

26. When you ask a girl, " Is something wrong?" and she says, "No." She's lying

27. Never use your fist to solve anything...One wrong punch can take a life...it could be yours 

28.It is NEVER acceptable to break up with a girl over the phone or thru a text ... be a man speak how you feel... Honesty is better!!29. Never forget God is Love...Where there is LOVE.. God has shown up...

30.. Always remember I love you, no matter what happens, You cannot lose me. I will always be there.